~* A Million Pieces *~ accounts of a hamstery "hamster"

2005-05-20T21:01:00.000+08:00

whew...its been a long time since ive updated...ive been very bz nowadays (not to mention my sickness...but its healed and all now, yay) coz of my exams...but its over, all over! we even got back some of our results...but mine were very bad...a lot of them fail...damn...if this goes on, how am i gonna do well in my o levels?!?! haiz...

nowadays, my artist block is coming and going at a very irregular basis...i only managed to squeeze my brain out on a drawing today...its not very gd, but haiz...its always better than nothing...i'll post it up on dA after ive coloured it, so do check for updates! :)

im currently saving up money, but dunno for wad...i wanted to buy a gd tablet, but gd ones always cost a bomb and i'll have to take a long time in order to save enough, and my brother said dat i'll get a gd tablet if i can get into IMD...hope hes right about dat...

i wanted to buy comics wif the money too, but come to tink of it, comics are kinda a waste of money...imagine...5 bucks for each comic book! haiz...

oh well...guess i have to put all these aside for now and concentrate on my studies...i need to get to IMD! i need to get a gd computer and tablet! i need to work as a manga-ka! sore dewa, ore no yume dato!!!

dreaming,
dempster

2005-05-10T09:54:00.000+08:00

ok...im so sick now...im actually supposed to be in school now having my commmon tests, but im too sick to do anything...haiz...

ok...im feeling kinda unwell now...gtg...

sick,
dempster

2005-05-06T18:51:00.000+08:00

KYAAA!!! im SOOOO dead for chinese!!! sob...

today i tried my best studying for chinese (and for ur info, i studied only the sec 4 chinese) even though i slept in a maths class and even chinese class itself...i was really too tired...the coffee has already lost its effect on me...

wad i did not noe was...almost every single qn did not come out from the sec 4 syllabus!!! im such an idiot for not studying for sec 1 to 3!!! oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh.............

but look on the bright side dempster! year 2005 is the only year ur classmates "celebrated" ur birthday! and look! u managed to draw on ur qn paper during chinese common test!

ok, dat was my alter ego...but haha...im right :)

im so happy today...really happy :)

happy,
dempster

2005-05-05T19:07:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh...im sooooooooo dead for social studies...

i didnt study much for ss, and i wrote a lot of crap in it too...none of my answers exceed a page, and both my seq answers are around half a page...im really sooooo dead...

but look on the bright side...its already over! wohoo! 2 down, 6 more to go...

tml is chinese paper 2...if i dun study for this one, then i really have nothing to say...

gd news is...my artist block is slowly going away! i was able to draw quite a number (but not very good) of stuffs today, but all are sonic-related...haha...but hey, its still an improvement isnt it? hehe...

hope this will go on, and eventually my period of artist block madness will be over, and i can finally start drawing like crazy! wohoo!

okok, im lame...haha...

today wasnt very gd either...i got drenched in the rain! although not very much, but im still drenched! i hope i wun get sick tml...haiz...

tired,
dempster

2005-05-03T17:27:00.000+08:00

so damn tired...haiz...

exams have already started...i juz had my english paper 1...1 subject down, 6 more to go...tml is social studies...wad am i gonna do...???

haiz...i need my coffee...

putting dat aside...im now totally confused...first of all...recently my inspiration on drawing suddenly disappeared, and i found my self wasting more papers dat i usually did...i guess this is wad ppl call it as "artist block"..but then...y at a time like this? issit because of the stress i had wif exams? issit my lack of animanga research dat got me into this? wad is the reason...

not only dat...nowadays for some unknown reason i feel dat sandra is starting to give me a cold shoulder...i dunno whether msn is her alter ego or wadsoever, but in real life too...haiz...i really hope dat things between us would get better...really...i dun wanna lose another friend anymore...my friends are...precious to me...and i dun wanna lose any one of them...especially the ones i love a lot...

haiz...i juz hope i get over the damn common tests and get my coffee...hm...mebbe i'll drink a can tml for a change...haha...

super tired and stressed,
dempster

New layout!

2005-05-02T14:45:00.000+08:00

New Layout! haha...i got tired of the mgs skin, so i searched blogskins for a nice, soothing skin, and i found this...the navigations are not very gd, but of well...hope it works for the whole of may...

may...its my birthday month...hehe...my birthday is on 6th may...which is 4 days later...oya, today is shuqi's birthday...happy birthday, shuqi! hehe...

common tests (i dunno y they wanna call it common tests, but nvm...) are around the corner...in fact, it already has started...next one is i tink social studies on wednesday...testing on everthing in sec 3 and until chap 3 on sec 4 and all the skills we've learned...omg! ive not started revising yet!

urrg...nvm...i cant say "die then die lor...", so instead im gonna say "i'll do my best!" hehe...

i went for service on saturday...ok...i really felt i dun wanna go back there again...it..sorta gives me the creeps...i dunno y, but i felt left out in there...although i do feel welcomed by Pastor Darick, but still...haiz...gosh...wad am i gonna do..

anyway, for those who have not gone to my deviant art page, please do so! hopefully one responsible soul can print screen the 100 pageview and show me so i can draw out a festival artwork for u! thanks a lot! link is at the "Links" section. its name is quite obvious, so its hard for u to miss it.

to every single sec 4 candidate out there, good luck for ur upcoming prelims and o levels!

to every single fellow 4Unity classmate, good luck in everything and may our bond never perish! hooray for 4U!!!

okok, im being lame...haha...

bored,
dempster

2005-04-28T21:14:00.000+08:00

haiz...nowadays so damn tired...mebbe its the side effects of the lack of caffeine intake...must...need...coffee...

but no! i already said to myself not to drink coffee for at least a month! haiz...

now is the period of common tests...its so irritating, to have to be forced to stay back for some kind of examination which didnt really concern our year end results...in fact, it just made matters worse...wad the hell...

not only dat...i also began to show signs of lack of artistic inspiration...recently i did nothing but juz stare in space during a maths class, wondering wad to draw...when i finally thought i had the inspiration to draw, everything juz disappeared again...and i had to stare into space again to wonder wad the heck am i gonna draw...grr...y is this happening to me???

i guess i will never noe...haiz...

P.S. oya, go check out my deviant art space...its http://ryodo89.deviantart.com. thanks!

tired,
dempster

2005-04-26T21:18:00.000+08:00

Spirited away - Itsumo nando demo
- by Kimura Yumi

yondeiru muneno dokoka okude
itsumo kokoro odoru yume wo mitai

kanashimi wa kazoe kirenai keredo
sono mukoude kitto anataniaeru

kurikaesu ayamachi no sonotabi hito wa
tada aoi sora no aosawo shiru
hateshinaku michiwatsuzuite mieru keredo
kono ryoute wa hikariwo idakeru

sayonara no tokino shizukanamune
zeroni narukaradaga mimiwo sumaseru

ikiteiru fushigi shindeiku fushigi
hana mo kaze mo machi mo minnaonaji

yondeiru muneno dokoka okude
itsumo nando demo yumewo egakou

kanashimi no kazuwo iitsuku suyori
onaji kuchibiru de sotto utaou

tojiteiku omoideno sononakani itsumo
wasuretakunai sasayakiwo kiku
kona gonani kudakareta kagami no uenimo
atarashii keshiki ga utsusareru

hajimari no asa(no) shizukana mado
zeroni narukarada mitasarete yuke

umi no kanatani wa mou sagasanai
kagayaku monowa itsumo kokoni
watashi no nakani mitsukeraretakara

---A very peaceful song...those who have watched the movie should now this song very well...this song keeps my mind off the stress i currently have...very...soothing...

relaxed for the moment,
dempster

2005-04-25T18:14:00.000+08:00

pretending is so hard...it makes me...even more sad...

i was depressed today, as usual, but i had to keep on smiling in order to pull a mask over my face...a mask called "happy" to cover something called "sad"...its painful when u tink of smiling even though ure sad, but come to tink of it...when i laugh, i do feel happy and forgot about anything sad...but when its over, it all comes back to me again...haiz...life...

all i can say is...once ive reached my limit of depression, i will break down...like the way i did on march 17...but i swore...i will not cry anymore...even though dats hard for me, i still managed to strive on...

things are getting slightly better now...if this goes on a month later, i can say dat the old and rebellious dempster is dead in this world, but wad came to life is a happy and outgoing dempster...even if dats the case...who will accept me? i dunno if they will accept me for who i am, or who i was...

"souriez!" "dun tink too much" these are the words my trusted companions said to me...indeed, thanks to them, i really have become slightly happier and able to concentrate better on the things i wanna do...(although i almost slept during english class today, but dat was an exception XD) anyway...thank you...

Buddha, please to give my family a healthier life...please allow my mum to be free from cervic cancer and live on longer...please allow my dad to be free from heart attacks...please guide my brother, sister and i to a better industrial life and earn more than wad we earned now...please...allow me to go on with my school life smoothly and finish o levels...amitabha.

slightly happier & letting go,
dempster

2005-04-23T22:33:00.000+08:00

life. its not juz as simple as many ppl tink. sure, a lot of ppl wanna live easy lives, but however easy they want it to be, they still have to go through the hard times.

for me, these are the hard and rough obstacles i have to get through:
1. the o levels, have to study hard and at least get the grade i want so i can get into the poly i want.
2. secondary school life. i noe some ppl care for me, but others? oh well...jus...get over wif it.
3. change my personality. i understand a lot dat my current attitude and personality irritates many. its time to be happy and souriez!

after all these, i can finally settle down and start on the things i love to do the most: drawing! not to forget my website too...

letting go,
dempster

2005-04-22T14:37:00.000+08:00

betrayed. i am so betrayed.

i thought i would be happy joining the adc, and would be so happy meeting tomozaki hidenori, and able to learn more stuffs...but this was all a lie. it was a lie dat taught me never to trust anyone anymore.

heres wad i uncovered:
-the adc did not represent anime drawing convention, but instead anti-dempster club. i was freaking angry when i heard this.
-tomozaki hidenori did not exist at all. it was juz a name dat they made up. no wonder there were no results when i typed dat in...
-the email addresses were created by them, all juz to lure me into joining something which i didnt noe was an organisation against me in disguise.
-my drawing talents, which are my strenghths, have been used as weakness against me.
-all of the ppl inside are juz smiling but deep within, there are knives ready to backstab me.

gifford lim ziyong, alex ho boon hwee, akapong lewchaleamwong, daniel ho canyi, and daryl quek zhiqin, u all have betrayed me and made a huge scar in my heart. i will never forget u guys. i will kill you all.

sandra, uve been proven wrong. they dun love me at all. they are juz shedding crocodile tears. unless u are one of them, i will still trust u.

i am disappointed. sad. depressed. betrayed. this proves one thing.

i am alone, and will forever be alone. no frens, but enemies. theres no one i can trust.

depressed, sad, betrayed,
demspster

2005-04-20T15:15:00.000+08:00

did i ever say dat a dog's bark is worse than its bite? yup, dats it. this summarises my day.

depressed, lonely, pissed off,
dempster

2005-04-19T20:55:00.000+08:00

its time to get serious.

Something to announce

2005-04-18T21:33:00.000+08:00

I have something to announce...

*ahem*

...

I...

I got chosen as the contingent leader for the ADC in the Temasek Section!!!

i cant believe...my hard work really really REALLY paid off after all!

i cant wait to see Tomozaki Hidenori in person! so excited! wohoo!

happy, but at the same time depressed,
dempster

2005-04-18T16:13:00.000+08:00

gosh...today really sux...i got pissed off by a number of things...

1. ppl say ive been hallucinating in class when im actually not...i mean, wads their problem toking about someone like this? if they dunno anything about hallucination, then lay off! urrg...i juz hate this...even if i really DO hallucinate, its none of ur freaking business...yes, shaun lin, im toking about u...if u tink im hallucinating, then keep the damn comments to urself and go away...its not as if i want u to hear wad im toking about anyway...

2. the auntie in the bookshop claims dat the geog textbook is not here yet, and dat pisses me off a lot...i ordered it last wednesday, and up till now, ive not even got the damn book yet...and the bad thing is, today IS the geog test, but how am i gonna study for it when i dun even have the freaking textbook?! urrg...now dat its already over, i really feel like breaking the neck of the person who stole my book for no apparent reason...

3. daniel and akapong have been badmouthing me lately...i mean, come on, do u ever wanna be badmouthed in the first place? first they tok about me in front of my face, and when i tell them dun, they juz go far away from me and do it...wads ur freaking problem?? keep the comments to urself ok? imagine wad happenes when someone tok bad about u...u like it? of coz not rite? since u noe it, then dun f***ing do it! and another thing, dun say "u dunno anything" when u didnt even explain a damn thing at all...dun expect me to noe wad ure toking about all the time...if u noe im depressed and all and still wanna make fun of me, then f*** off.

oya, a note...kenneth, thnx so much for so called "defending" me today...i owe u one...

my life juz sux huh...

depressed,
dempster

2005-04-17T13:12:00.000+08:00

some assholes have been spamming my tagboard...and they tink i dunno who they are...i dun wanna mention names here, but im gonna give them a good snap in the neck...i swear...

anyway, heck about these bastards...watched one piece today...sad to say, its getting more and more boring...its taking too long and up till now they have not even left the drum island yet...urrg...kids central sux...

on the contrary, though, arts central is becoming my in thing...now dat they feature animes for an hour at night on wednesdays to fridays, ive been staying up late juz to watch them...now they're showing last exile and shaman king...the quality is wayyyyyyyy better than dat of kids central's...original japanese version, along wif subtitles...while kids central's so called "animes" are dubbed in an uber bad way and there are no duals sounds or subtitles or wadsoever shit...now u see y i hate kids central...

okok, enough tok about animes...ive got a pile of newspaper articles i have to do, and i have to hand them in on tuesday...2 more days...haiz...im sooooo dead...

depressed,
dempster

2005-04-16T17:45:00.000+08:00

the tagboard is back, after much tinking...i juz hope dat some irresponsible assholes wun ever impersonate as me and spam the damn tagboard...hey...i juz wanna have a peaceful blog...and u guys juz have to destroy it! urrg...

anyway...watch gundam seed today...its the last episode, and unlike the previous times i watched on the com, i cried a lil...the ending is juz...too touching not to cry...oh well...i am getting more and more softhearted...damn...

the ADC has chosen akapong and i as the contingent leaders...wohoo! my hard work really paid off after all...

my homework......wait...my homework...wad about my homework???

never mind about it, i guess......

depressed,
dempster

2005-04-15T21:31:00.000+08:00

life...has it always been gd? or bad...

today is wad i categorise as one of the most suckiest days in my life...y? first of all, im stuck at home for long hours wondering wad to do...yes, im freaking bored...even the set of saiyuki reload vcds didnt help me one bit...i juz fell asleep...

i had no one to go out wif tml, and dat makes things even worse...dat means dat i have to stay at this god-forsaken home doing all the stupid homeworks i have, and i have to listen to my mum nagging at me...i noe she cares for me, but urrg...sometimes i juz cant take it...

however, sometimes i do wonder...do i ever have the right to exist in this world, in this small little island called singapore? if so...then y issit dat wherever i go, ppl despise me or give me the stare i never wanna be given? y issit dat ppl always love to drag me into a corner and leave me there to rot? y is the society now so cold? y cant they give ppl a chance at least to prove themselves? haiz...this is one thing i will never noe...

now dat im stuck at home, i really dunno wad to do...i wun ever touch my hw coz i noe i'll leave them alone eventually...i juz dun like to do hw...it completely contradicts the purpose of homework time...give us homework time in the end still want us to do hw at home...wad the hell...

whenever i sit down and tink, it all comes back to me again...the qns i have in life...the outcomes of the mistakes i made...the way ppl treat me...they all haunt my mind...i am able to sleep, but not without dreams...and my dreams always have to be weird, but pessimistic...

depression is really taking its toll on me now...not even the world's best tranquilisers wil work on me...life...really sucks...

very depressed,
dempster

2005-04-14T19:33:00.000+08:00

damn, the coffee is starting to lose its effect on me...now how am i gonna keep myself awake? haiz...

today was quite a tiring day...juz another boring daily routine in my life...first off was a maths...since i dropped a maths, i used this time to chiong my zuo ye...copy frolm my fren...blehz...love it too, coz its another time i can listen to mp3 apart from homework time...hehe...

next up was chemistry...haiz, can sleep one siaz...ok, skip this...

then its chinese...one period, but theres a lot to do...i was happy i finished my zuo ye before chinese, but my zao ju havent finish yet...left wif 1 stack..haiz...have to hand in tml some more...sianz...

ok, then its recess (ahh..finally...) im rather stuck up wif coffee recently, i always go to the "holy" vending machine located at the back of school canteen and bought a can of "blue mountain blend coffee"...i love it when its cold ^-^

after dat english...hm...did nothing much but oral...dats all...no choice, my oral too gd..haha, no lah...

then its the oh-my-gosh geog class...thought it was hell for me since i lost my textbook, but it turned out to be fun...especially when we got a chance to plant some sawi seeds using hydroponics...my rahman even wrote "we love sawi" on one of the cups...it was so hilarious...but wads the sad thing is dat we have to wait for 6 to 7 days in order to see some seedlings come out (seedlings some more...) haha...

finally, history...juz another lesson, no diff...mrs verma went over the skills on compare and contrast all over again (which was really redundant since ms neo recent taught us dat...haiz...mere regurgitation...haha...)

then its homework time...physics time was kinda boring since i didnt wanna do the hw, so i started drawing...but its not complete yet thanks to the chemistry time which was 45 minutes later...grr...ms woon always takes away my drawing time...

so in the end no choice...have to finish the worksheets mr eng and ms woon gave us...and i have to complete my drawing by today so i wun have to worry about losing inspiration...haiz..

super bz,
dempster

My dream...

2005-04-11T18:52:00.000+08:00

i promised at my previous entry dat i would write about my dream here...but before dat..i have things to share...haha...

go to this link...its an album of the pictures i took from the internet and when i went out on saturday...

now...for the dream...

its a real weird dream, actually...i dunno, but its something like a scene from metal gear solid 2...i was hiding from the attacks the ninja delivered to me...then...it turned out dat the ninja seemed familiar...its like someone i noe of...but i had no choice...i had to kill him...in the end, the ninja was actually my brother...then...he kept slashing my wif his blade...i could feel the pain, but it wasnt bleeding at all...then...i took the blade from him, and plunged it all the way into him from the top of the back of his neck...not much blood came out, but he still died...i had no choice...he was after my life...when i held him, he slowly disappeared into thin air...dats when i cried bitterly...in my dream...and in real life...i even wet my pillow wif my tears...but no one knew about this...

life...really is cruel...isnt it...

depressed,
dempster

2005-04-10T16:46:00.000+08:00

today i went to see my new home...its at woodlands, ya, kinda far...but its so sooooooooo superb! after i move into dat house, i will finally get a room of my own! ahhz...now i wun have to be stuck wif sharing rooms wif my sis anymore...urrg, i juz hate it...

love stories are now getting more and more like my thing recently...for some reason, im always tempted to make comics out of any story categorised under the word "love"...i noe im a animanga fanatic, but im juz an unofficial comic artist...things like these would definately be impossible for me...cmon dempster...faraway dawn has not even started, and now ure having ideas of making more? one step at a time, dempster...

one step...at a time...

i cried during my sleep today...although it was short term, but it is enough to show dat my vow was not meant to be true......and about y i cried...haiz...i'll write in my next entry...remind me...

sad and depressed,
dempster

2005-04-09T19:28:00.000+08:00

ahh...today was such a great day...such a...tiring day too...

i went to plaza singapura wif daniel, junkai and honghui today...we went there hoping dat we would get some gd things with the pathetic vouchers we have...but we were wrong. akapong said there are some art shops there, but in the end, we sweeped the whole shopping mall wif not even an art shop in sight...then we thought of spotlight, since junkai said there are some art materials sold inside...but in the end, the vouchers are nothing but just junk papers there...so no choice, i used mine on a set of saiyuki reload vcd, daniel used his on tshirts at hangten...

so after dat we went around the whole place like ppl wif of unknown origins, but thanks to dat, we found a shop dat sells art materials, and they sell copic markers too! but too bad not enough money...so i took a namecard and went off wandering wif them...then honghui brought us to a shop where they sell all sorts of animanga merchandises, from vcds and dvds to comics and how to draw manga books...(didnt noe y she said phoebe went there b4...haiz, nvm...)

then i went to the church wif daniel again...i didnt noe y i went there, but nvm...i saw sandra and william there too...we talked for a while before i left for home...not to mention sleeping on the bus too...

then after dat i went to tampines challenger to buy earpiece...but in the end bought the wrong one...so i went home unhappy...not noeing dat my mum had the earpiece i wanted, and so i exchanged the one i bought wif hers...woo, so happy!

i guess life is going a lil bit better...things are getting more smoothly than before....haiz...but still, life sux...

depressed,
dempster

2005-04-08T16:49:00.000+08:00

another tiring day...haiz...

woke up at 5.30 as usual and left school at 6 and reached school at 6.20...i went to school hoping i could get a can of coffee from the vending machine, but juz my luck...they were all sold out...so for the time being i had to resort to a cup of iced milo...after dat went to get a can of red bull from the drink stall...it was so sweet, and was said to keep ppl awake due to the presence of caffeine...but in the end i felt sleepier than usual...haiz...i guess only dat can of coffee helps...

i managed to finish a remake of my first comic during compo class today, although its not inked out yet...i have to wait for tml so i can get it from an art shop in plaza singapura wif the vouchers i have...i wonder wad can i buy wif 20 bucks...nvm, i tink i can borrow a dollar or two from daniel's voucher...

recently im not feeling like myself...i dunno y...i had this feeling dat im gonna break down again soon, but i never got an answer when...although i swore never to cry again, but i guess this vow was never meant to be true...

it always happens this way...when im at the canteen, i sit on a bench wif some other ppl i noe of...went to buy food alone...eat alone...i didnt open my mouth like i used to...and then in classes...i always occupied a seat at an extreme corner, be it the front or the back...and sat alone there, wif no one beside me...the only times i sit wif other ppl is when i had no choice but to...during group discussions, as usual, i work alone...most of the stuffs i do are not wif other ppl, but alone...im always alone...no one to tok to...no one to be wif...

but its nice to be alone...i guess...

depressed,
dempster

2005-04-07T21:51:00.000+08:00

ever wondered how someone feels...when hes all alone, wif no one to depend on...yes, i mean dat hes all alone, when everyone left him alone, when the society made him tink dat life is nothing but a torture...

dats exactly how im feeling now. stuck up, a sense of hatred towards the public, and yes, loneliness.

i might have done something wrong, i might not have done anything, but in the end, ppl juz tink the same way. they never give the poor soul a chance to prove his or her talents. in the end, dat person is always remembered as the dirty person he or she is, and as someone whos a good-for-nothing.

this is wad i hate about society. they are too straight minded.

living alone is harder than said. wait till u experienced it urself, then u'll noe exactly wad i mean.

never mind. im too pissed off to say anything now.

pissed off currently,
dempster

2005-04-07T18:32:00.000+08:00

blogger is so attitude...second time dun let me in at all...

i finally have a song dat suits my current situation best...here goes...

Simple Plan - Welcome to My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

this song is self-explainary...no one understands wad i feel now...welcome to MY life...:)

depressed,
dempster

2005-04-06T19:40:00.000+08:00

new layout! ahh...finally...the first layout i made using my own resources...although this layout was originally from someone..sorry!

anyway...today was kinda...humiliating...the prize presentation was ok, but i didnt noe dat i was invited to present the prize to mrs ouyang...haiz...and wads more, the voucher wasnt presented, and it left us standing there at the front like some idiots until some daring ppl said "go back lah!" or "sit down lah!" oh well...typical temasekians...

since i dropped a maths, today's homework time was a breeze...there was nothing for me to do, so i drew...but i didnt manage to draw anything gd...all i only drew was a pathetic picture of ryodo and moirai (bad proportions) and an incomplete picture of naked snake...arrg...i dunno y nowadays i have totally no inspiration in drawing...even after i heard a lot of music from my mp3 or read a lot of comics repeatedly...

i guess all these came from practice...i tink i need to reinvent a better way of drawing...haiz...

tired,
dempster

2005-04-04T20:33:00.000+08:00

today is a tiring day indeed...

school was real boring...got punished by my chemistry teacher today for dunno wad reason (must've been the guy who never help me take the worksheet...) also, the chinese lesson was kinda boring too...had ting xie almost all the way...not too easy, so i tink im gonna die...

after school, there's this homework time...boring again...its juz like last week, we are given worksheets to do and then we go through...but today we left at 3.30 because of the supposedly cca awards rehearsal, so i didnt get to complete my worksheet on time...

im not sure if i really dropped my a maths or not, but since i already signed the application form, its up to mr eng, mrs hong and mrs ouyang to decide my fate...but the feeling of not having a maths in my mind is so comfortable...haha...

oya, dat reminds me...ive not done my newspaper article yet...not even the ones dat were supposed to hand in last time...im soooo dead...trust me to fall asleep juz now..haha...

tired,
dempster

2005-04-02T22:36:00.000+08:00

i didnt have anything to do today...really nothing, i have to say...

y does love hurt so much? i dunno...i guess dats wads a lot of ppl wanna noe too...i like this certain someone in my school...i only noe her for a short while, and dunno much about her...but shes gd looking...and has the same interests as me...i dunno y...i juz...started to like her...

but the thing is...she likes someone...of coz everyone has gotta have a crush rite...but i was sad...and i mean very sad...i didnt noe wad to do...and my schoolmates now discourage me from liking her wif excuses like "it will never be possible between u and her", "get a life, she wun like u" and all sorts of stuffs...i am...very sad..

if love hurts dat much...y does it even exists in the first place?

love is a special feeling u have for someone...someone who is special to u...someone u noe u will be wif forever...but wad if dat someone doesnt love u...but loves someone instead? dats the way im feeling rite now...i feel...one-sided...

dun ask me anything about who i like, although i guess some of my frens noe already...

sad,
dempster

2005-03-28T17:30:00.000+08:00

and here i am...typing another meaningless entry about today...i love my home...

today was a real bad day for me. why? first of all, the dream dat i had last night haunted me until now (yes, now as in while still typing this out) and its a real senseless dream...its only the music dat haunted me...

anyway, after recess, i had a lot of shivers running down my spine...first, the geography test...i lost my geography book, so i didnt manage to study anything...when the test paper came, i started to panic...i had to rely on wad i gathered the last few lessons and put all of them into my answers, but i failed...in the end, i wrote a lot of crap, almost none of which made sense...im soo dead for dat...

chinese was not so bad after all, except dat i had no choice but to stand outside of the class because i didnt do my bi ji...but other than dat, the spelling, unexpectedly, was easy...im sure i can pass, although not wif flying colours...

then after my homework time, when i went home wif delpha and nace, after they left, i started to feel bored and took out my mp3 player from my bag so i could listen to my favourite songs to accompany me home...but wad i didnt noe was dat the screen was made of glass, and it cracked! i didnt noe this at all until i took it out from my bag...haiz...i guess i really regretted buying this model...no choice...had to endure wif it until i get a new one...not even 1 month somemore!!! haiz...

i tink im gonna do my homework now...if not tml im gonna die again...

pressured by bad luck,
dempster

2005-03-27T23:23:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to study wif daniel and sandra...ahh...the feeling..its so great...

i arrived at the church before 1 (i noe im not supposed to be there, but then...) and waited at the canteen for daniel. sure enough, he arrived at 1 something. we studied at the canteen and did our homeworks...ahh...it felt real great studying there...but i felt a lil uneasy...dunno y...i didnt manage to complete my homework, and i did not feel like doing it 1 hour later because...

the great o' sandra came at 2 (eww!)

after she came, we didnt study one bit...we were, like, drawing there for another hour or so...actually we didnt draw much...it was sandra who was drawing a lot, and on my sketchbook too (i didnt mind, actually, coz her art was real great...and i gave her the permission to draw on my sketchbook ^-^) so at 3.15 she left the both of us to be the usher or something...by dat time the canteen was already crowded...wow...the people at church really are united huh?

so anyway, daniel and i slacked until 4.30, then i said gdbye to sandra and daniel before leaving for home...i didnt stay for the service because 1. im not a christian, even though the service is open to the public, and 2. it ends at 7, which means i'll get home only at 8.30, and dats uber late, so...ya...but it was really fun. really.

oh well..i wish i could stay the service...i wished...

in deep thought,
dempster

2005-03-24T21:55:00.000+08:00

today was the annual combined sports meet of the east cluster...its, boring, juz as ive expected. (:

first of all, my dad fetched me there. i was, well, freezing inside the lorry coz the aircon was set to the lowest temperature (brr). but gd thing was, today is the first time i got out of the lorry without having my specs misted. wohoo! world record? (lame lah)

so anyway, we went to assemble at the west entrance of the national stadium, and of coz, "brotherhood" (omigosh, i cant get dat word out of my mind...kenneth, zhiqian, wad have u done to me???) anyway, it was...quite a bad assemble, because very little people attended the assembly at dat time, and it was only until i reached my seat when they started coming. btw, we didnt sit in classes as planned by the school. we were...scattered everywhere. typical temasekians. (:

so the whole thing started, and i listened to my mp3 for the whole thing (let me see...4 hours?) and got pissed off by a bunch of hooligans who did all sorts of graffiti on my precious sketchbook. arrg, of all the things dat can be found, they had to make my sketchbook rot. luckily it was only one page, if not their necks would have been broken by now....

so after the stadium, daniel, kenneth, alton and i went to kfc and had our...lunch (or issit feast? hehe) we ate a lot, and i mean a hell lot, we almost couldnt walk coz our stomachs were sooooo full...but it was great...certainly. after dat we went to comic connection and took a look on the "newest" stuffs there (real typical comic shop, actually...cards, comics, toys...oh well)

so here i am, at home now, writing this short story in front of the com wif my ps2 on (oh no! snake!) after having a nice sleep in the afternoon...ah...this is life...

happy,
dempster

2005-03-23T22:52:00.000+08:00

whew...i managed to endure today...ahhz...the feeling of home...whee!

so basically today was tiring. very. i slept during english class (thank god its the last lesson, of else i would have been dead) but it was...oh well...boring (do i need to say dat?)

during homework time, all i did was maths, maths and more maths. my teacher's simple worksheet already took up the whole of the homework time, leaving me no speck of a second to draw...although i did try to draw today during lessons, but i threw the paper away beacause i realised how lousy i am in drawing guys now. im losing the touch of ryodo, not to mention ronin, musashi and delpha...haiz...y muz i draw so much of moirai and estarien??? oh well...skills come and go...

after homework time, we had to go to the hall for some...motivational briefing...or wadever hell dat thingy is called...it was real short, like, 2 minutes? it was crap, all they said was dat we must be enthusiastic in cheering because we were champions in the cheering competition last year (dat was like...crap?) anyway, after the briefing, since i really had nothing to do, kenneth, darryl, zhi qian and i went around the hall...well...crapping (: i played the piano, and did almost all sorts of "stunts" wif darryl such as staiway pullup, jumping onto the stage without arm support, and sorts. oh well. home sweet home.

tomorrow and friday...gonna love them to bits because there'll be no school on these 2 days!!! wohoo!!!

ok, im lame... X)

happy (finally...),
dempster

2005-03-22T16:42:00.000+08:00

today is so tiring...

today's IT club was kinda boring...i had nothing to do, so here i am, updating my blog...

nowadays people are so dao and attitude, juz as i put in my msn nick...its like...i dunno y lor...i mean, they are so de...arrg, juz so attitude. okok, i have nothing to write.

so sianz...so tired...zzz....

sianzed and tired,
dempster

2005-03-21T20:58:00.000+08:00

today was such a tiring day...but i was kinda happy because we finished making the film, the poster and the writeup. and already sent it to victoria junior college...wohoo!!!

ive been sleeping too little everyday...i tink less than 7 hours...okok, i noe u guys sleep less than dat, but for me...oh well...i cant do without sufficient sleep...

so tired...wanna sleep...zzz...

tired,
dempster

2005-03-20T17:54:00.000+08:00

new layout!!! hehe...the previous Hellsing layout didnt work out too well coz its too dark, so i decided on this instead...nice ya?

tml is the start of another term...also a new era of my terror...haiz...so sianz..gonna sleep again...

sianzed,
dempster

2005-03-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

i thought of it for a long time...and i finally came to a conclusion...

after dat fateful day on march 17, i swear to myself

-i will never cry anymore.
-i will let go my feelings for her once and for all.
-i will concentrate on my studies more even though it will be hard for me.
-i will not let my mum worry.
-i will aim for my goal.
-i will stop on gaming and start on drawing even though its hard for me.
-i will be friends wif her forever.

dat was long...but it has to be done...oh well...time flies...waitaminute...

IVE NOT DONE MY HOMEWORK YET!!!

oh well...nvm.

letting go,
dempster

2005-03-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

sometimes i juz dun got it......

i dunno y whenever i tok to ppl on msn, i always get nowhere...

when i tok to sandra, i thought i could be happy toking to her, but in the end, for some unknown reasons, we always became...unhappy about things, and then the conversation ends without me knowing it. i might be too insensitive and immature, but...i dunno...

the rooster year is definately not a gd year for me...why???

sad,
dempster

2005-03-17T14:34:00.000+08:00

haiz...another day of unhappiness...

i bought her present this morning, and managed to give it to her...but then...something not gd comes...

when i was in jurong east shopping center, while looking down at the ppl on the railing at the second floor, i suddenly broke down and cried...i dunno y, but at dat time i felt like crying...i cant really tell anyone the reason coz i would feel bad about it...mebbe next time...mebbe...

btw, i took this quiz on which mgs character i am, and this is my result...

You are Solid Snake! You are the man! You won't
stop until you accomplish a mission, people
look up to you.

What Metal Gear Solid character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

not bad huh? i took another one and this comes out...

I am Solid Snake; wise, skilled, and nearly
invisible. I also have a great love of
cardboard boxes.

Which Metal Gear Solid 2 character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

looks like i really am Silent Snake after all...(:

another one! a Zone Of the Enders 2nd Runner quiz...and this came out...

Dingo Egret
An ice miner on Jupiter's satellite Callisto.
An expert at LEV (manned labor robot) piloting and
a leader figure trusted by his pals.
While working he detects reactions of the almighty
ore Metatron and goes searching for it.
He finds Orbital Frame "Jehuty" at the
origin of the reaction.
He used to belong to the BAHRAM, the military
regime of Mars.
Dingo is apathetic to everyone except for the
safety of his pals.

Z.O.E. 2nd Runner Quiz
brought to you by Quizilla

i rock...

sad,
dempster

2005-03-15T20:05:00.000+08:00

life deteriorates everyday...life sux...

ok...so ive not been updating my blog for a long time. a lot (and i mean A LOT) of things happened, and most of them are bad...

i really dun get it at all...frens come in and out of ur life. i noe dat. but wad about the reason? sometimes i juz dun get it...

another thing...its all over between her and myself...wad can i do? haiz...

indeed. life really sux.

haiz...

depressed,
dempster

2005-02-21T20:23:00.000+08:00

sometimes...i juz hate it...

Life Sux...

2005-02-07T19:16:00.000+08:00

whew...long time no update le...

today was a damn tiring day...almost slept in geog class...grr...i wonder y the extreme heat of the sun is making me sleepy all the time...or mebbe is because i slept too late last night? hm...

so anyway, i had my first student leaders investiture rehearsal today...stupid siaz...i sore throat no voice still force me to shout...haiz...later on dat day i really no voice then their fault le...haha...

oh, i also went to the singapore polytechnic open house last saturday...kinda formal, but overall not bad...but the cutoff point for the design school is 12...sure cannot get in unless i squeeze my brain juice on my portfolio...;_;

k lahz...dun go le...feel like playing ps2...so byez...

bored,
dempster

p.s. oya, i forgot...HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
haha...

2005-02-04T18:54:00.000+08:00

New layout! haha...i was too fascinated by Hellsing lately...oh well, cant blame an anime otaku like me..haha...

anyways, my sore throat is almost over..hope its completely gone by tomorrow or i will have a hard time talking...haiz...

todays zuo wen class is soooooo boring...i slept for 10 minutes in front of the teacher she oso dunno...haiyohz...no choice ma...from china de...so ya...haha...

new year coming le...yay! i can do anything i want when dat day comes..but rest only 2 days...then friday have to go back to school le...sianz...haiz...

k lah...dun write anymore le...actually oso dunno wad to write lahz...haha...so byez...

happy,
dempster

2005-01-30T19:34:00.000+08:00

ahhz...had my haircut today...damn, its too short...ah well...at least it prevents hair from growing too fast...haiz...

anyways, today was kinda boring...i got up quite early to get my haircut done in half an hour, then reached home and ate breakfast...i used the com for a while until 12.30, only to realise dat today isnt showing one piece...not only dat, i missed a good half hour of sonic x...arrg...

played metal gear solid 3 juz now...defeated the end via stamina kill...then saved the game and went down for dinner...haiz...today really is a boring day...

ok...i tink i go play metal gear solid 3 now...so byez...

unhappy,
dempster

2005-01-29T13:02:00.000+08:00

haiz...finally blogger allowed me in...attitude siaz...

watched hellsing yesterday...hm...sadistic (: imagine a whole army of zombies come biting ur head off...and then a dracula comes to ur rescue...ahh...love alucard forever!

so sianz...now even nothing to write le...ok lah...byez...

sianzed,
dempster

2005-01-27T19:44:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since ive updated my blog...and ya...so many things happened lately...

the home room system is now really getting on my nerves...instead of getting me fresh and awake (like wad mrs ouyang said), i feel even more tired than usual...i even slept during lessons...now the teachers cant blame us for sleeping, but blame mrs ouyang instead...besides, shes the one who started this home room system...

my current emotional struggle is still not over yet...a lot of ppl hate me for no reason, without me ever pissing them off...i mean...i dun get it...dun these ppl noe how a person feels when he is despised? i dun tink so...coz these bastards are never despised! i hate the world for being such a despisive (or wadever u call dat) place...how i wish i could drop dead and not live anymore...haiz...life is juz so unfair...

oh well...im trying my best to forget all these...so i wun write anymore le...byez..

tired and depressed,
dempster

2005-01-20T19:28:00.000+08:00

whew...another tiring day...tml is hari raya haji, dat means i dun have to go to sch! yay!

hm...i read "the Way of Love" today...only a few pages...but its kinda interesting and keeps me bz too...ahh...finally back on the track of reading after so long...its time i pick back up some of my old pastimes...haha...

today's homework time went kinda fast...i finished my chemistry homework within 1 1/2 hours, so i started to work on my comic's 4th page...it is kinda hard at first, considering the proportion of the bodies when standing or sitting down...haiz...but now im getting the hang of it...

i have a bunch of homework i need to do and finish during the weekend...most of them are chinese...one is social studies...man..how i wish sec 4 life is at least a lil better...haiz...

oya...i got some kind of a great deal of music for u guys...its the opening music for metal gear solid for ps1...i noe its copyright, but hey...theres no where else i can put it...hm...the link's here (to download, right click on the link and select "Save target as"...).

ok...i gtg now...i'll write some more the next entry...so byez...

tired,
dempster

2005-01-19T19:57:00.000+08:00

whew...it's been a long time since i ever updated the blog...has been bz nowadays so, im sorry...

the school days seems to be passing very very slowly for some reasons...but on the contrary, the history lessons (which goes so slowly i actually slept in class) has been speeding up. guess it depends on how occupied i am...

the homework time (or protected time for subject mastery...haiz...lor sor...) has started this week, and has been quite some help for me. not only i can concentrate more in doing my homework and asking the teachers for help), i also get to do wadever i want after i finish my homework and listen to my discman at the same time. hehe...like dat then not boring le...

got a lot of things happened since my absence on the blog le...but too many liaoz, so i too lazy to list them out...mebbe some other time ba...

k lah...dun tok le...gotta pack my bag now...byez...

sianzed,
dempster

2005-01-04T09:32:00.000+08:00

yay! its the beginning of a new year! goodbye 2004, hello 2005! okok, ive not been updating the blog much so, im sorry...

anyway, i had my first day of sch today...my sch now introduces the new home room system...its ok...but it was a lil messy...considering the number of changes made by juz 1 year...but ok lah...kinda...erm...fun...

hm...nothing much to be said today...so i'll stop writing le...byez...

tiredz...
[dempster]

2004-12-31T16:24:00.000+08:00

haiz...long time never update blog le...so many things happened...the most recent one being the big earthquake dat caused the tsunamis in some countries, killing a lot of ppl...haiz...one nice life like dat kena destroyed by a big bunch of h2os...i wonder wad will happen next...but i noe its never gonna be something good...

so anyway, had a maths reexam today...i thought i would pass when i was doing the 1st page, but when i tried the 2nd page, i was going "fail le...fail le..." it was so damn hard...it involved trigo functions...logarithms...haiz...im not sure whether i will drop it or not, but who cares...i dun really wanna take it anyway..a waste of time...

k lah...dun tok le...need to go do some stuffs..byez...

tired,
[dempster]

2004-12-22T14:45:00.000+08:00

ok...i was really pissed off today...why? first thing...naruto naruttiment hero 2...dat's wad really pissed my off today...when i used kyuubi no naruto to fight against orochimaru, it took me more than 5 tries to completely shake this ass off my mind! this fight is sooooo fscking hard! grr!

okok...back to cool down status...yesterday went out wif my dear dear...i bought her a tulip...ahh...finally...after a long time, my promise to her is finally fulfilled...hehe...she seems happy...i mean duhhh~...i got her her favourite colour of her favourite flower...

so anyways...we went to the arcade at lot 1...i went to play the samurai (or was it ronin?) game...damn...i didnt noe dat the handle of the katana alone is so damn heavy...then i couldnt really swing it smoothly...then we played time crisis 2...we almost went completed the last stage...haiz...we were so close too!

hm...after dat then we took a photo...i dunno wad it is called..but i tink it is lovegety or wadever it is (wadever the name is, bleehhhhh, i suck in the photo...no choice wad...not ready to make a pose then the camera start shooting le...)

hm...i tink i said quite a lot today...k lah...go burn my brain for more ideas on my comic le..byez...

luv u forever...
[dempster]

2004-12-19T10:37:00.000+08:00

yahooooo! finally changed my phone today! erm...it came out quite recently, but free de, nokia 3120...hehe...yay! finally got a colour phone!

but crapz...i didnt noe dat it can take so long...anyway...around 2 something dear dear called me...she asked if i free...haiz...could have gone out today if not for the drag-on by my brother....haiz...nvm lah...suan le...

ok...im a lil tired now...i tink i go take a short rest...byez...

tired,
[dempster]

2004-12-18T10:43:00.000+08:00

crapz...can't get into Maple Story!!! grr...sent an email of inquiry to them already...now all i have to do is to wait for a reply...haiz...

played naruto just now...i was kinda impressed dat i was able to get quite far...hehe...ive customised the characters here and there, and my strongest character currently is none other than naruto!!! yay! haha...

k lah...dun say anymore le...i go do a lil more sketches...byez...

luv u forever...
[dempster]

2004-12-16T14:27:00.000+08:00

hehez...today dear dear came my house...bascially we played naruto...ya...then can count as a draw ba...haha...anyway, we ate lunch together at home...wahz...my mum cook sha po fan very delicious...although no choice had to eat mushroom and veggie...(in case u dunno, i dun eat those)no fair lor...dear dear force me one...hehe...

so anyway, we went into my room (ahem, no dirty thoughts) and used the com...a lot of crap stuff on the net lahz...then fetch her downstairs and wait for the bus wif her...

then reach home dat time i went to exchange games wif my friend...now havent play yet...i tink i going to play later...

ok...dun tok anymore le...byez...

luv u forever....
[dempster]

2004-12-14T13:13:00.000+08:00

wahz...12 more days and its christmas...aiyahz...havent tink of wad to give my dear dear...die le lahz...

anyway...today went to my dear dear's class bbq...hehe...she invited me one...so i go lor...b4 we went there we played some arcade at downtown east...played quite a number of games there...budden disgraced myself at the drum game...haiz...

so we reach east coast at around 11.30...we settled our things there, then head to the sea...no fair...dear dear pushed me into the sea...haiz...then i got all wet...then when i got back on shore, i found my sis calling me on my hp...then she told me not to go into the sea...oh no...but lucky i got bring extra shirt, if not i really die liaoz...whew...

then we went to collect some seashells for her to make a necklace out of them...ya...then went back to the pit, which at dat time they started the bbq le...hm...i ate only a bit lah...and then didnt eat for almost the whole day lah...ya...so was a bit hungry lah...

dear dear's dad went to pick her up, so i went home on my own...liewz...reach home then xi ling men finished...2 times already leh! arrgrgr...

okok...dun tok le...need to continue on my comic...byez...

luv u forever...
[dempster]

2004-12-10T10:14:00.000+08:00

so sianz...nothing to do at home...played metal gear solid 3 juz now...damn hard...haiz...mebbe im not cut out for dat kind of game ba...

i feel so lonely...after being cut out of communications wif my gf...haiz...i miss her voice so much...although i noe we are meeting each other next monday...but still...haiz...

k lah...dun tok le...byez...

luv u forever...
[dempster]

2004-12-09T12:53:00.000+08:00

whoa...today rained like hell...no wonder it was so freaking cold tonight...ok, mebbe im not gonna turn on the aircon to sleep tonight...

went to buy my books for next year le...wah...so damn heavy...my bag and another plastic bog dat my mum carried...hm...mebbe this means dat next year's burden is damn heavy ba...since i have to study another stack of sec 3 books...haiz...

oya, i finally came to a conclusion today dat i have started going insane waiting for my game, one piece grand battle 3, to arrive, so i thought f it, and changed it into metal gear solid 2...nice game, but some features cannot access for some reason, so i thought f it again, and upgraded it to 3. not tried it yet, so i came over to check it out on the internet for some data b4 playing it.

okok, i tok too much le. going to play metal gear solid 3 le...byez...

[luv u forever...]
dempster

2004-12-08T10:55:00.000+08:00

haiz...

now dat i cant tok to u on the hp anymore...i feel a part losing in me...ur voice...haiz...

i feel so not myself now...wad had happened? wad wrong have i done in the past? wad did i do to deserve this? why......?

no matter wad the both of us do...i juz wanna tell u something...

I love u...

dempster

2004-12-08T06:41:00.000+08:00

haiz...long time never update blog le...no choice mah...these days so sianz...

anyway...i finally completed The Incredibles on ps2 yesterday...yay! (but not without the help of a certain cheat...i must thank the Heavy Iron Studios who created the cheat-enabled game! hehe...) but one thing dat scared a bit of hell out of me is this certain cheat dat made my character's head become insanely big...whoa! just look at the scary face! i thought dat i will have nightmare when i slept, but it was a gd thing i psycho myself to tink of other stuffs...whew...

ok lah...dun tok le...need to go do some other stuffs le...byez...

[luv u forever...]
dempster

2004-12-03T14:28:00.000+08:00

haiz...today went for haircut...so sianz...first my hair was long and alright, and then it was cut until my head "shrank in size"...haiz...

went out wif dear dear today...ate lunch...haiz...i tink i disappointed her today...but i cant really say it out here...only between the 2 of us...haiz...

ok lah...nothing to say here...so i'll stop....byez...

luv u forever...
[dempster]

2004-12-02T12:19:00.000+08:00

wah...first day of december liaoz leh...hm...not much of a difference anyway...still a day rite?

anyway...today went out wif dear dear...hm...walked around at jurong point...played some arcade there...(haiz...chia lat siaz...wasted 10 bucks there...) played time crisis 2 and 3...mehz...i hereby make a conclusion dat i really really REALLY suck wif the guncon...1st stage only kena shot so many times...haiz...suan le lor...they put hard difficulty setting also not my choice mah...but time crisis 2 i improving le...hehe, i seem much better at aiming rather than shooting around madly...then i also played this samurai game thingy...a bit lame, but kinda fun...my dear dear also played the japanese police game...seems much better than her coz she always has a habit to dodge bullets even if it doenst really hurt her...well...only her character lah...then also played silent scope 2...for some reason i always aimed at the.......ya...but got further than my dear dear...hehe...

ok lah...dun say anymore le...need to find pictures of aeroplane for my comic le...so byez...

luv u forever...
[dempster]

2004-12-01T09:32:00.000+08:00

whew...finally completed my holiday homework...lucky! now i can finally play all my favourite games and not worry about anything else! yay!

anyway, i tried maple story just now...it was kinda cute...except dat coz of my com the game is very laggy, and the graphics got a bit "sot" sometimes...u noe...crazy...haywire...ya...

hm...i tink i wanna go play somemore maple story le...or mebbe continue on my comic...but either way i will be bz lah...hm...so byez......

luv u forever...
[dempster]

2004-12-01T05:43:00.000+08:00

ok...my blog has been so called "upgraded"...my tagboard has also been changed...do check it out!

ive been trying to make a flash movie as a trailer and opening sequence for my website...u noe...http://www.ryodo-studios.com...but i might need a lot of time to do dat coz i still need to gather more skills for making a gd flash movie...not to mention a tablet for prefect drawing on the com...

ok lah...dun tok le...mum scolding...have to go do my final yue du bao gao...so byez...

luv u forever...
[dempster]

2004-11-30T10:50:00.000+08:00

hm...nothing much done today...except there is a new megatokyo entry...read it...a little bit lame, but overall quite cute...

finished jian bao already...10...now left only 1 yue du bao gao...then im freeeeeeeee!!! haha...ya rite...anyway, it took me quite long to do the last 4 jian bao today coz i wasnt really concentrating on it..but somehow i managed to pull it off...whew...

today dear dear had st john...now she toking to me...hm...i wonder if she had fun today...?

haiz...ok lah...nothing to say le...byez...

luv u forever...
[dempster]

2004-11-29T08:08:00.000+08:00

whew...finally started my blog after so long...haha...not my fault mah...i not gd in html and somemore very little blog layouts are nice...except for this one dat caught my attention...hm...

last friday went out wif my dear dear starfish and watch the incredibles...its so hilarious...but also a gd chance for me to see for myself wad jack jack's powers are...and bingo! morphing...hehe...when he turned into a devil and attacked syndrome, i could not stop laughing...haha...ya...

oya, we also went to the arcade and played some games there...hm...preferably time crisis 2...actually wanna play time crisis 3, but then we couldnt start the game, so no choice...went down 1 level and played time crisis 2 instead...hehe... wow...cant believe shes so gd in it...although sometimes when she suddenly scream during the game lah...dat one she also scare me...haha...then i tried it also...quite fun, although i always get hit by the enemies and i used scatter shot...then the accuracy not very gd...hehe, not my fault leh...all this time i have been playing wif controller so no choice mah...no too used wif the guncon...

ok lah, dun say so much le...so tired...byez...

luv u forever...
[dempster]